Highlights of my life (;
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Happy Mother's day....not.
...
So,
today is Mother's day.
I woke up.
She wasn't home.
I quickly started drawing for her.
We haven't been good lately, we have been arguing almost, everyday.
Over every little thing.
& she had let me know that she doesn't need anything from me for this day.
Because, she said it didn't mean anything to her.
Yea, she just said it like that.
Anywho, I went to her today, showed her what I drew.. and you know what she said?
She told me, she doesn't want that, she told me. She doesn't want that. She told me, she doesn't want that.
She told...
She said, she wants me to listen to her instead. She wants me to stop my stupid plans, and that me being vegetarian won't get me anywhere. & that's why I'm sick all the time.
Man, fuck this.
It's so good. That feeling you get when people reject you.
Thank you mom.
& I remember how guilty I felt that very moment, when I dropped the stupid paper and quickly went to my room and closed my door. Thank you mom. For teaching me how to hate you & myself.
Thank you.
You never actually tried to understand me. You never listened.
Anywho,
Thanks.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
I don't wanna..
I don't wanna realize it's only me keeping us together.
I don't wanna realize I love you so much more.
I don't wanna realize I was the one stopped you from pushing me to break up.
I don't wanna realize you ever decided to walk away.
I don't wanna realize I'm just there to fill your hours.
I don't wanna realize you don't care about so many things that hurts me.
I don't wanna realize I got you so close to me,so close that I can't let you go now.
I don't wanna realize I will be the weakest person alive without you.
I don't wanna realize I'm not really your everything.
I don't wanna realize you don't think about me.
I don't wanna realize you didn't fell in love like crazy with me.
I don't wanna realize how you act cold when something goes wrong.
I don't wanna realize those moments you weren't afraid of letting me go.
I don't wanna realize how easy it is for you to move on.
I don't wanna realize how your reactions affects my emotions.
I don't wanna realize that I'm miserable without you.
I don't wanna realize that you didn't spend time for me.
I don't wanna realize so many things.
I actually..
Don't wanna realize,
that I'm blind.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I don't wanna realize I love you so much more.
I don't wanna realize I was the one stopped you from pushing me to break up.
I don't wanna realize you ever decided to walk away.
I don't wanna realize I'm just there to fill your hours.
I don't wanna realize you don't care about so many things that hurts me.
I don't wanna realize I got you so close to me,so close that I can't let you go now.
I don't wanna realize I will be the weakest person alive without you.
I don't wanna realize I'm not really your everything.
I don't wanna realize you don't think about me.
I don't wanna realize you didn't fell in love like crazy with me.
I don't wanna realize how you act cold when something goes wrong.
I don't wanna realize those moments you weren't afraid of letting me go.
I don't wanna realize how easy it is for you to move on.
I don't wanna realize how your reactions affects my emotions.
I don't wanna realize that I'm miserable without you.
I don't wanna realize that you didn't spend time for me.
I don't wanna realize so many things.
I actually..
Don't wanna realize,
that I'm blind.
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Friday, April 29, 2011
An ugly truth is better than a beautiful lie, dearest.
& I just needed a space..
It's so HARD to move on..
Why?!
It feels so good when you are with me..
With YOU, I realized how sweet it is..
to have someone that cares.
About every little thing that happens to me...
Someone that lets me forget the pain
With their sweet support..
Someone who opens
their arms for me.
whenever I need to..
let all the pain out.
Someone that pulls me in...
When I give up on every damned thing.
Someone that promises me..
hardest deals that not a friend would promise
somebody that adores me like a world
not for anything, but for my INSIDE-SELF
Somebody that understands me..
Like no-one else does.
Someone that I'm never sick of..
the one that I can't get off my mind..
the one that I fall in love with
every single day.
more
&
alot.
alot.
more.
than before.
(Iloveyewuomosporco<3:D)
& what is happiness?
To love and to be loved,
By your love.
So tell me.
What else do I need?
When you are my everything.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
It's true that I can't live without you, & cause maybe two is better than one..
We both know what it is.
& we both want it to change.
& we both are tired of it.
Me & you.
Yet, we cover it. Just for now..
So far so good....
So far so good.....
So far so good..
& that's the limit. Where we can't take it anymore.
Neither of us.
& I decide to take another path. Everytime we are about to fire out. I decide to put it up with my pride. But baby I'm still so in love with you to make any move.
You got me blinded.
It's insane, but it's sweet. I want to fall in love with you, everyday, even more.
& I know I need you.
I know I want you.
So just stay still.
a little bit more.
Please.
Stay still...
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight
All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight
Sunday, April 10, 2011
We are the people
We can remember swimming in December, Heading for the city lights, in 1975 We share in each other Nearer than father The scent of a lemon, drips from your eyes We are the people that rule the world A force running in every boy and girl All rejoicing in the world Take me now We can try We lived an adventure Love in the Summer Followed the sun till night Reminiscing other times of life For each every other The feeling was stronger The shock hit eleven Got lost in your eyes I can’t do well when I think you’re gonna leave me, but I know I try Are you gonna leave me now Can’t you be believing now Can you remember and humanize, It was still where we’d energized, Lie in the sand and visualize like its 75 again We are the people that rule the world A force running in every boy and girl All rejoicing in the world Take me now We can try I can’t do well when I think you’re gonna leave me, but I know I try Are you gonna leave me now Can’t you be believing now I know everything about you You know everything about me Know everything about us I can’t do well when I think you’re gonna leave me, but I know I try Are you gonna leave me now Can’t you be believing now
Let's act like humans.
Can people in this world stop minding other's businesses?
I strongly dislike when people insult you for what YOU believe in, for what you choose for YOURSELF, for YOUR life, When they gossip about how YOU live your life or how YOU wanna live your life. This is MY life, this is MY body, this is MY choice, & MY future. Stop judging.
I hate when people call those who CHOOSE to be different disgusting. Don't like it? Don't communicate with them!! it's just that easy.
It's not about being gay, lesbian, bisexual or trans. it's not about where you are from, where were you born, and how you look like. If you're gonna judge me for that, haha, FUCK YOU.
I don't live my life to please anybody.
Bullying/insulting anybody for being LGBT is illegal in my dictionary. It's exactly like bullying a black person for being black, a Chinese for being Chinese, an American for being an American, etc. & I see it coming. I mean, people these days are against it, it's just like how it was with a race awhile ago, how people were being racist to blacks. I'm dead serious. & I see a future, where people are gonna regret what they did to them.
I'm from Iran, I don't live in a tent on a desert. I speak Farsi/persian, Iran is pronounced "EERAUN" and not "I-ran" ( It's not track & field) News flash: Iran and Iraq are TWO!!different countries, Middle East is a region and NOT a continent, And camels are not our way of transportation. Belly dancers are NOT strippers (no sex in the Champagne room ;) . Belly dancing is an Arabic dance (go figure), it never came from Iran. Each time you play a game of chess to improve your intellect, keep in mind that it was Persians who gave you your game. Iranian women are just as out spoken (if not more) and liberal as European women, And what the hell is "soccer"?? We also call it FOOTball. Iran is the first country on earth to have a lion (male) and a sun (female) for its symbol; and the colors red, white, and green for a flag, A beautiful country. In my country, the stupid regime, separates boys and girls in school. in 70% of religious families over there, liking a boy is a crime. (No, it's not a real crime. The family consider it as a "crime") yet, the stupid government kills anybody who turns Lesbian/gay/bi/trans. Yes, and they do kill them. Your mind is blank? figures. It doesn't make sense. They force them to love their same sex, yet they kill them for it?
In my country, Women and girls don't have a choice to wear what they WANT to wear outside. They often get insulted by jerks who chase them. 80% of men over there, only have the eyes to look over young girls. With all the Islamic crap that government covers, smartest teens pass out by taking drugs, millions of teenagers get killed on the street because all they ever asked for was FREEDOM. Our holidays are often filled with depressing shows on the tv. Our "Imam" or "Emam" (I'm not sure how to spell that) that get to be the leader in the mosque's turn out to party and have fun with young girls. 10 year old children over there, are often DEPRESSED or start to get depressed. Over there, women are not allowed to sing! (Guys are, but only some sort of songs, which are so not popular) over there, guys can have more than 1 wife. Which government tends to respond that it's only because "women are weak and need a man to live their life" .. Need? my ass. Over there, if a woman kills a man, she is going to be killed right away. But if a man kills a woman, it won't be the same thing. Government and regime is BULLSHIT OVER THERE. & let me add, Ahmadinejad, can SMD (; (If I had one. I know! I know! I'm not a guy v_v)
& Here I am, talking about stuff that nobody knows, the shitty situation in such a beautiful country.
I don't have a religion. I don't. I think I have had enough living half of my life in a Muslim country and happening to see the country turning to hell by the hands of the government. I'm literally sick of it.
I don't have a religion. I don't. I think I have had enough living half of my life in a Muslim country and happening to see the country turning to hell by the hands of the government. I'm literally sick of it.
- Conclusion,
WE ARE HUMANS, WE NEED FREEDOM IN EVERY WAY.Thursday, April 7, 2011
Love is ALL you need (:
Oh, he is so charming. All I ever needed.
I needed his support, I still do & I always will, he is unbelievably amazing.
He is so sweet, he makes me melt, he makes me smile like a fool, he makes my tummy get butterflies all around,
& sometimes, the only thing I need in this world, is his arms, to hug for years.
Ahh, I'm starting to miss him already ;'}
He makes "us" beautiful together.
He IS the one not letting me go or break down at any moment.
Sometimes I wonder if my heart is not so enough for all the favors he has done.
He. completes. me.
Do me a favor baby?
Never ever walk out of my life, because I couldn't be any happier without you.
Note: None of these pictures are mine!
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